In My Humble Opinion (IMHO)

Concerning 'practice what you preach'......

I need to make an apology. I got something wrong. I suggested that someone was doing something which they were not guilty of. In fact, if I hadn't been so hell bent on revenge, and thought out what I was suggesting that person was doing I would have seen I was stupidly wrong. I simply didn't stop to think.The inner child in me wanted to be able to go 'Nah nah nanah nah - you got boogers too'. If I had calmly thought about the information I was given I would have realised that what was told to me was not correct - but I was so wrapped up in my own need to give back the hurt and anguish that had been dealt  out to me so spitefully and unecessaily that I didn't stop and think - I just reacted in a very childish way. For that, I aplogise. The next time a third party points out a wrong-doing by someone else I'll mke sure that they have checked their sources properly and read the fine print CAREFULLY AND CORRECTLY and not read what they wanted it to read.

It is an unfortuate aspect of human nature to lash out when you've been hurt by someone - especially when the hurt delivered was caluclated, deliberate and delivered for maximum effect. Just why that person felt that they needed to hurt me I can't fathom. As far as I am aware, up untill that point I had never done anything to cause them any distress or harm personally or deliberately. If I had, then perhaps tackling me on the point and making me realise that I had offended them and allowed me to try and put the situation right would have been the more adult way of handling it. Instead, it seems the path of trying to hurt me back for something I hadn't realised I had done was chosen. Whatever, it still doesn't excuse me doing something wrong. I believe the saying is 'Two wrongs don't make a right'.

I do not expect the person concerned to forgive my harsh words or my mistake. From what I know of the person concerned, it is not in their nature to do so. In fact, I am fully prepared to have my words thrown back at me forever more. That's fine. If that's what that person needs to get through life - so be it. As for me, I need to get a bit more balance and calmness in my life. I'm letting go of my anger and hurt and I'm moving on - to keep holding on to it is pointless, destructive and - as I have so adequately now proved to myself - belittling . I don't want to be the sort of person that walks about consumed with anger and the need for revenge because - if you are you - you miss some much of the good times in life and you become the sort of person that other, more emotionally balanced people tend to shun. I just don't want to be like that anymore. So I'm not going to be like that anymore. The end.

So I'm ging to leave this piece up for awhile for the whole word and it's uncle to see - for people who need to to gloat over and start a chain of Chinese whispers, if that's their bag. Then I shall take it down, put it away in some deep and dark place and forget all about it. Oh yeah, and I think I'll take up Tai Chi to help  me with the balance thing!